three updates.

sorry for having gone MIA. I lied to myself a lot about coming here and pour my hearts out in long blog entries since October. There’s lots of major life-altering shit happened since, but to sum it all up concisely:

1. I still do not enjoy hospitals. I never enjoyed being in a hospital, or hospitals for other reasons other than getting medial check ups. I find them triggering to my memories, mostly bad ones, about my dad and my time there longer than a decade ago. Again, being there for someone does not make it less painful. I would never want to put myself or anyone I love through the horrors of sleeping with a billion uncertainties in the ICU, trusting your life fully on a team of doctors. As a caretaker, it was traumatising enough and now it’s crazy to think how distant all that was from where I’m sitting now. God must have been real because I have been allowed to see one after another miracle in my life.
2. My first ever music and EP. For some last-minute weird reason, I now find myself days away from releasing my first music ever, called Bad Tattoo, followed by a full EP (hopefully in March / April). Nothing was planned until 3-4 weeks ago. It is a dream I decided to pursue because I left 10 years ago to pursue all different versions of me. Happy to finally learn that music is my true calling after all the helmets I have been able to put on professionally. Please stream the songs be my early family coz I love you and hopefully the songs speak to you enough (coz I write them all too with help heheh) in ways that you remember you read this on Jan 8. brb pinching myself.
3. to be disclosed soon. this is just as major as update #2 above. I have been keeping this a secret too until it’s time.

happy new year – hugs!!!! with love, meow.